WooHooo

im so dead,almost exam lor...and what i only did is PLAY!!! great

Moving

yeap...im moving away again....haiz.Just got the news from my mum,dun know what to say,but i hate it.There goes my childhood,primary school that time,i moved away and the result is im far away from my fren,feel weird when i meet them.Then at sungai dua,finally i started to know the people around there,jason,eric,vincent,meowin,cat....move again. Now at ayer itam,finally start getting used to this place.MOVING AGAIN!!!! That's why i dun have a friend who stay in touch for many years!!!!!

just dun know when i will be moving.im so sick of this.....

Laugh.

something quite special happened today.

i fall off a jet ski with my dad jason.not exactly what u see in the picture.we both fall off.Man,i dun blame you for this,this is really a good experience,i treasure it.THX

I notice something thank to this.i can even laugh when im in the middle of the sea waiting for rescue.this let me found out that im the type who laugh over their problems.Is this good or bad? They say guy die earlier than woman cause guys cannot cry out their feelings,so can i laugh out my feelings?i also got things that im not dare enuf to speak out.BUT i dun wan die earlier!!! can someone teach me how to handle this?

My way of crapping.

i like to talk like this.not many can talk with me like this,this eric guy is one of them.DAMN i miss the days when i can crap with them face to face.

History

Just feel like crapping.suddenly i keep on thinking about the dramatic change in my life when im standard 3,still can remember that time,suppose at my age i should always sleep well and got sweet dreams.but its not for me during that year.I cant have a nice sleep almost every night,that's the time i start to sleep with the lights on and cover up my whole body,that way i feel more comfort,until now.

my uncle's house is very near our house that time,i even have a time when i just sleep in my uncle's house rather going back home.I dun know how to face my dad,when i look at him i only feel anger.Until now,im so far away from my dad that i dun feel anything anymore,not even feeling of family.I only think of him as my financial supply,every time i talk with him is about asking for money.He is just a stranger who have the same blood with me and support me with money nia.my tears totally dried up that year and it never drop again.

I lost my faith because of him,a big effect on my life.But its not my fault,what he done can never be healed.Wonder he still feel regret or not?

Relationship?

Saw something at prom night.Makes me wonder what is love? can love makes everything possible?

I,ME,Myself never be in relationship before.So i can not understand how the hell what i saw happened.If u r experienced,mind to teach me?

During prom,i saw two people,a boy and a girl,malays.err,in some place which got not many people.(no it's not wat u think) they chatting in kinda romantic way............sudden!!!!

???ok,maybe that guy hated the girl for quite a long time and finally he cant stand it anymore.So i just ignored that and just keep walking away,since it's not my business.but im curious,i wonder what happen next,i turned my head around and WALLA!!!

That guy kiss the girl!!!.....................HUH???WHAT???HOW???WHY???WEIRD???ROMANTIC???MENTAL PROBLEM??? or is it because i dun understand love? how can this series of action can be explained by love? what's wrong with people these day? am i the weird one here?is it normal for people to act like this? is this what they called dramatic?all couple do this before?

I just cant help but think,do i need to do this to my gf?

How about this theory?

girl"dear,maybe im not the one for u,i think u deserve better,y dun u just forget me and go find a better one?"

PIAK.......silence..........MUAKS

boy"u never say that again,all these years im searching for someone who complete my other half,now u tell me to let go after i found it?"

Reasonable? no wonder i never got a gf,im sure i cant do this,not like this i say. Guess im still not ready for this.

Wanted.

Wanted!! Alive or Alive. This guy here have done something which i dun know myself that deserve a punishment to live in a big big house with many maids and only steak and wine allowed for every meal.

too bad u cant kill me huh??